I’ve come to realize that I’m still in love with Phil. I will always love him. I think American Idol tonight was just for me. It was like, every Mariah song was talking about a love that’s never coming back, but that you’re gonna love forever. I don’t know how to explain it…I was truley [...]
Archive for April, 2008
intertwined
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged american idol, divorce, life, love on April 16, 2008 | 1 Comment »
She’s dying
Posted in death, grandmother on April 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
This beautiful lady, my Bot Bot, she’s dying. And I can’t stand it. The doctor’s said soon, she’s just not going to wake up. And I know I need to find a way to go see her, but I don’t want to see her in yet another hospital. Everytime I see her, I expect to [...]
You are weathered and worn
Posted in Uncategorized on April 7, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Sometimes I don’t know where to begin. There are so many thoughts moving around. And mostly I feel stupid for them, cause they’re like so many I’ve had before. And they’re so tired and unorginal. I try to tell myself I’m an orginal, that I am unique. But more and more that seems so false. [...]
memories
Posted in Uncategorized on April 3, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I woke up last night with a nightmare. And before I could think, I turned to Phil. But of course he wasn’t there. He never will be again. And that thought has me devastated. I know who Phil is now, the fake. But I can’t forget the Phil I thought he was. I can’t forget [...]
